I will seriously never understand boys!

Ok so back in October I really liked this guy but he was really unreliable and he would never reply to my txts or calls. We kind of lost touch when he changed jobs but in January we started talking again after running into eachother. So things went right back to us flirting all the time but it never went anywhere. Well lately we became kind of close, he never ignores my txts or calls anymore and we hang out about 4 times a week and he has introduced me to a lot of his friends.

So what's the issue? Well I'm still super confussed where I stand with him. I can't tell if he likes me. He always txts me that he loves me but I think he does that to everyone. He then got a kind of girlfriend but that was doomed from the begining and they only dated for about a week.

So on Saturday I was hanging out with him and his roomate and he kept telling me "oh I love hanging out with you! You are so real and i love it." and he said " you don't realize how many people we ignore to hang out with you." and his roomate was like "totally! Everyone else is so fake and that gets so old." it was really flattering because I think they are really cool and I always feel somewhat lame because I'm a nerd. Then on Sunday we end up going to a bar and drinking with his roomate and his roomates sister. Well I get there and he had already bought me a drink and he says to me "I'm so glad you came because Taylor(the roomate) is going to be just hanging out with his sister and I wanted someone." I don't really know what he meant by that! And then I finally told him about my lap band and he said " that is so cool! You looked good before but you're hot now!" and I think I made a face or something because he asked me if I thought I was hot and I said I don't know and that it is hard to explain. So he says " you're totally hot! I really realized it the other day when you were wearing that yellow shirt and you were walking down the stairs. Wow" I just laughed and blushed I don't really remember what he is talking about but he seemed to remember it really vividly. Then we drank more and he asked if I would go out with them on Tuesday and I said yeah and asked if I would dance with him on tuesday at the club and I said of course and he said "good! Just so you know I'm going to grind on you." hahahaha! I don't know what to think about that.

Well all in all we had a good night on Sunday but i'm still so confused! I guess we will see how our night goes tomorrow. He told me Sunday night was the best night he has had in years ( he can be a little overdramatic). I guess I don't really know what to do to let him know I like him. Ahhhh!


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Wellness Video Update

ok so I sent in my story for that wellness video and they said they won't be able to feature me in the video but that they would try to feature my story in one of the quarterly bulitens. That is fine with me honestly. It would have been cool but I also get very nervous on camera! hahaha

On another note I had a really cool experience the other day. I was at work and I'm becoming fit certified so I was in the dressing room with a customer and my boss and the lady started talking about how she had just gotten surgery and my boss asked what surgery and she said that she had just had a lower body lift. She said that she had gastric bypass and had lost 175lbs and that she had about 60lbs left but decided to get the surgery. My boss said "you know sarah had weightloss surgery too!" and we started to talk about it. It was kind of cool to meet someone who has had weight loss surgery that way. I always imagined that that might happen but I never thought it would. And she told me all about her plastic surgeon and he sounds amazing!!! I can't wait to check him out! I've been looking around for surgeons but I haven't made any consultations yet. I need to start doing that because I kind of hope that I will be able to get surgery this summer. I keep going back and forth on what I would like to get done and I can't decide! I know I definately want to take care of my bat wings and I know I need to take care of my inner thighs but I would also like to have a lower body lift because my rear sags quite a bit! hahaha

Newish Pictures!

Here are some newer pictures!

An ugly sweater party I threw! hahaha

Same party

Dancing at the party! hahaha

Goodbye celebration for my friend on the right. This is also the night I met that guy.

Goofing off in science class.

Same class. Taking samples in the bathroom. HAHAHA

oh and catherine i finally got my eyebrows done!!!!!!

Movie star???

Hahaha so I'm at work right now and we have these flyers everywhere that say " volunteers wanted!" so I read it and it says they are looking for volunteers to be in a wellness video they are making for our benefits. They want people to email their wellness stories to corporate and if you make the cut you go to Seattle and film the movie and then you travel with them to different places in the region to promote the program. I'm kind of tempted to do it. They did use weight loss success as an example. But I don't know if they want someone who has done it with or without surgery. We will see....


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Another Update! And I need your input!

OK so I've been super busy of course and once again haven't had a chance to blog lately. :( but I have an iPhone now and I downloaded the blogger app so hopefully this will give me a chance to update a little more often. So here is what's new in my life so far.

• I've lost a little more weight but wasn't trying. I actually didn't even know I had because the batteries in my scale died a few months ago and so I haven't been weighed since my last doctors appointment. But people all of a sudden people started to ask me if I lost more weight and I kept telling them no since my clothes fit the same. Well I finally bought some new batteries and sure enough I went from 171( I fluctuate between 167 and 172 normally but that was what I was stable at for awhile) to 161! hahaha Now I know it sounds strange but being at 161 makes me a little nervous because I wasn't trying to loose anything it just happened and I don't want to get any smaller than this so I hope I don't mysteriously loose more weight again! But on an exciting note I officially weight less than half my original weight!!!! I was originally 324 I'm now 161 and I lost 163! woo hoo!!!!
• Ok so another update that isn't weight loss related! I got a promotion at work! I'm officially the accessories assistant manager and I love it!!! It keeps me crazy busy though between that and school and friends so that's probably why I haven't updated much. I started that on december 1st. My next goal is to move on to opening a new store as accessories department manager. There are a few new stores opening next spring which is when I would love to do this since I would finally be done with my AA. Here are my choices of cities so far: Lakewood, CO; Upland, CA; Peoria, AZ; Lakewood, CA; Tampa, FL; Chicago, IL; Boca Raton, FL; Durham, NC. OK so a lot of those stores are actually opening in fall but I'm really ready to relocate again! So I haven't been to most of these cities and I know a few of you are from florida if you guys could give me some input on ANY of these cities that would be fantastic!!!!
• One more update that kind of sucks. I met a guy but it didn't work out. :( Oh well I think he was a little bit of a d-bag. I will have to update more on that later right now I need to go meet up with a friend for lunch!!!

Hopefully a new post comes sooner rather than later!!!

THANKS!

Since it is thanksgiving I thought I would list what I am thankful for this year.

• I'm thankful for all of my amazing friends and family.
• I'm thankful for my band and the new life it has given me.
• I'm thankful for all you guys! you guys are always so supportive and there for me when I need you guys the most.

It's a basic list but there it is! hahaha

Lap Band Quiz

My mom is my only other family in spokane and she is working on call so I have to pass the time on thanksgiving some how! hahaha

1. How long have you been banded? 11 months and 2 weeks!


2. What was your highest pre-band weight? / Current weight now? / Total lost to date? 324/167/157

3. What is your best "go-to" food to get in your protein? any kind of nuts, chicken or fish.

4. What is your favorite protein brand/shake? After a 1 month and 10 day clear liquid diet I can't do protein shakes. hahaha

5. What food do you miss the most now being post-band? Hamburger with fries.

6. What is your favorite "mushy" food? Cottage Cheese

7. What was your worst PB experience? I ate some steak too quickly and I didn't chew it well enough so it got REALLY stuck and I felt sick but I couldn't PB. After feeling like crap for about 2 hours I finally decide to get in the shower and just stand under the hot water. Sure enough that helped and I PBd all over the shower.

8. What has been the hardest part of this journey so far for you? Not getting enough protein so my hair loss has been REALLY bad.

9. What is your best NSV to date? My favorites have been hearing my friends tell me their boyfriends reactions. hahaha they have been funny. And also being able to try on anything in any store, other than torrid and lane bryant :(

10. What is your top non-weight goal for your band? I'm not really sure. My goal was always fit into designer denim and I already got there so I guess I need a new one. hahaha Maybe to feel comfortable in a swimsuit/bikini.

11. What is your goal weight or size? My goal weight was 170 and I reached that on 10/13/09. I made a new goal weight for me and it's 162 because then I would be exactly 1/2 of my heighest weight. hahaha

12. What band "rule" do you live by (i.e. don't cheat on)? hahaha NO SODA!!!! I drank some by accident once and it was horrible!

13. What band "rule" do you not follow as much or aren't so good at? I don't have a good exercise routine.

14. What is your goal "reward"? I bought a bunch of jeans. My mom said she would buy me a designer dress but I haven't done that yet.

15. In the spirit of Thanksgiving being right around the corner (US), what are you most thankful for, post-band? I'm so thankful for my new lease on life!

New pictures!!!

Self explanitory!!! hahaha

Bay bridge

Having fun at the Piers!

Watching the fog roll in

I LOVE chocolate covered bannanas!!!

Snuck into a spa! hahaha

This was a mineral pool that played music that you could hear underwater.

We went on a beautiful hike that was almost 3 miles long!

View from the top.

It was about 100 degrees so we were a little gross.

I LOVE this girl!

I LOVE this girl too!!!

Tower of terror!

My favorite ride

That is my mom right next to me

bored standing in line. hahaha

Indiana Jones

My adventrues while I was MIA

So I just realized the other day that I never really fully explained what was going on while I was MIA.

So let's start at the beginning. In September I got really sick again, but this time it was the flu. I just all of a sudden got really nauseous and my band closed up again. I needed to puke so badly and eventually started heaving but couldn't get anything through my band of course so I called my doctor but he was out of town so they told me to go to the ER to get some liquid taken out. I went in and guess what? No one knew how to take liquid out! hahaha So I basically talked them through it. I told them what kind of needle my doctor uses and how he does it. They knew how it worked they just had never had to actually do it so it wasn't like they were completely lost. Well they ended up taking out a full cc because I was really tight. They also gave me some anti nausea medicine which made me feel TONS better! I didn't get another fill for another month and a half, my doctor only put back .5cc's because I didn't want to put in a full cc right away. I think I will get another fill and just put in .25cc's and I should be at my sweet spot hopefully!

So right after getting sick I got to take a trip down to California! I got to spend some time in the bay area and visit some friends I made while I was at Dominican University. I miss them all so much! I made some really great friends that feel more like family. Well anyway it was my first time riding on a plane since getting surgery!!!! and it was amazing! I didn't need a seatbelt extender and I could cross my legs! hahaha it's so funny how the little things can make you so happy! Also after going to the bay area we went down to LA and went to Disneyland. It's amazing to no longer having to worry about fitting on rides and it was amazing! I had such a fun trip and it was great not to worry about slowing anyone down while on vacation! hahaha

Ok so one last thing to talk about. Because I have lost so much weight in my butt I now have really bad tail bone pain. It is REALLY horrible. I can't sit down for more than about 5 minutes at a time(unless I sit on the side of my hip or on my special pillow). And when I go to stand up the pain is so bad that I get light headed. I went and got some x-rays and of course they said they only saw swelling so I needed to get a special pillow and just take some Tylenol. Well that hasn't really helped much. So when I went in for my last fill I asked my doctor how long this pain will last and he told me that he has never seen it go away. He said in some cases it got a little better and the people learned to live with it but in the cases where the pain was really bad people had to get surgery and remove part of the tailbone!!! I'm afraid this might be me. I need to make an appointment with a specialist I just haven't gotten around to doing that yet.

who woulda known!

Ok so I went to dinner with that guy and guess what? .......I'm not really interested in him anymore I don't think. hahaha I think I was just really turned off by him ignoring me. I really thought I was still going to like him but we were hanging out and I realized I wasn't really feeling it. Don't get me wrong though, he is still a cool guy and I do enjoy hanging out with him I just don't want to date him. I know I will find someone eventually I just wonder when.

So onto another subject! hahaha I get to sign up for classes on thursday and me and some friends are going to take this cross training class. I'm so excited because I'm hoping that is going to help me get motivated to exercise. I have to spend 28 hours in the gym in order to get a 4.0! That seems like so much to me, but I know it will be good for me. and it will be nice to have a good support system. Also we had an active wear day at work this weekend so I bought a workout outfit and I love it! hahaha I'm seriously thinking about taking pictures and posting them. hahaha

OMG!

ok so I seriously don't understand boys now. So that guy that I like that has been ignoring me just texted me here is what our conversation was like.

him: hey are you alive?
me: yeah are you? I thought you died! hahaha
him: haha you are getting real crazy
me: what? I'm confused. hahaha
him: I love you ha ha
me: are you drunk?

After this he calls me and says he wants to hang out tomorrow. I agreed. I feel super lame but I can't help that I like him. GAH!

Thanks mary for keeping me entertained!

A
- Age: 22
- Annoyance: Boys, if you couldn't tell. hahaha
- Animal: 2 pomchi's
- Actor: I don't have a favorite. But I do love to look at Cillian Murphy.

B
- Beer: not my favorite but I like sam adams if I do drink it.
- Birthday/Birthplace:May 9, 1987 in saudi arabia
- Body Part on opposite sex: Arms and eyes
- Been in Love: nope
- Been bitched at: yeah, customers bitch at me constantly at work.
- Believe in yourself?: Yup Yup
- Believe in God: I believe in a god.
-Before weight: 324

C
- Car: 2004 toyota camry
- Candy: yummmmm! hahahaha
- Color: any bright color!
- Cried in school: once it was horrible! hahaha
- Chocolate/Vanilla: depends but normally chocolate
- Chinese/Mexican: mexican!
- Cake or pie: normally neither unless it's really amazing pie or cake.
- Country to visit: I eventually would like to travel everywhere!

D
- Day or Night: as long as it's not morning I'm good.
- Danced: when I was younger I took celtic tap.
- Do the splits?:hahaha that's a joke.

E
- Eggs: over easy
- Eyes: brown

F
- First crush: This guy in kindergarten
- First thoughts waking up: ugh I want to go back to sleep!
- Food: Is amazing but evil sometimes!

G
- Greatest Fear: failing
- Goals: My short term goal is to get into sf state. My long term goal is to eventually become a pathologist.
- Get along with your parents?: my mom yes for the most part, we are too alike not to drive each other crazy sometimes though. my dad not at all.
- Good luck charm: I don't have one

H
- Hair Color: Brown
- Height: 5'9
- Happy: yeah school is stressing me right now but I'm still happy.
- Holiday: halloween
- Health freak?: not at all hahaha
- Hate: I'm going to go with boys again. hahaha oh and homework! hahaha


I
- Ice Cream: yummmmm I love this place in town called maggie moos!
- Instrument: I have played the piano, violin, and the clarinet but didn't stick with any of them.

J
- Jewelry:I'm alergic to all metal except for 18k gold so jewlery is a problem for me. :(
- Job: Sales associate.

K
- Kids: none, I don't know if I want kids at all.
- Kickboxing or karate: I used to do karate, I didn't like it. I think I would like kickboxing though
- Keep a journal? nope.

L
- Longest Car Ride: spokane to seattle to annaheim and back. I think it took us almost 2 weeks.
- Love: Would be nice.
- Laughed so hard you cried: all the time!
- Love at first sight: I don't believe in it.

M
- Milk flavour: strawberry!
- Movie: Uhhhh there are a ton!
- Mooned anyone?: nope but I've been mooned. hahaha
- Marriage: we will see.
- Motion sickness? not normally but every once and awhile it will happen
- McD’s or BK: neither.

N
- Number of Siblings: 5 half siblings. 2 boys 3 girls all under the age of 11.
- Number of Piercings: my ears but I never put anything in them because of the whole metal alergy.
- Number: 7

O
- One wish: to do well in school.

P
- Place you’d like to live: San Francisco
- Perfect Pizza: pepperoni and pineapple, I know I'm a weird one.
- Pepsi/Coke: no soda! but before surgery I loved pepsi.

Q
- Questionaires: are a good way to kill time.

R
- Reason to cry: I don't have a reason to cry right now.
- Reality T.V.: Sometimes drives me crazy but sometimes it really cracks me up!
- Roll your tongue in a circle? yup yup

S
- Song: right now I love "do better" by say anything, "the tip of the iceberg" by owl city, "down" by Jay Sean.
- Shoe size: 11-12
- Salad Dressing: I like vinagarettes.
- Skipped school: I do occasionally
- Smoking: I have a hookah
- Sing well?: eh not really
- Strawberries/Blueberries: Either!!!

T
- Time for bed: normally sometime around midnight.
- Thunderstorms: are beautiful!
- TV: I love TV hahaha

U
- Unpredictable: uhhhh

V
- Vegetable you hate: I love vegetables!!!! It sucks because vegetables ALWAYS get stuck!
- Vegetable you love: see answer above but I really love brocolli and asparagus.
- Vacation spot: Anywhere as long as it's a vacation! hahaha

W
- Weakness: currently halloween candy that's on sale EVERYWHERE! and buying new clothes.
- When you grow up: I want to be a pathologist.
- Which one of your friends acts the most like you: I think all of them are like me in different ways.
- Wanted to be a model?:Not really.

X
-X-Rays: a few on my feet and chest.

Y
-Year it is now: 2009
-Yellow: I want some yellow shoes!

Z
- Zoo: In san diego is super cool!
- Zodiac sign: Taurus